While in the bathroom this morning I discovered my mind was meandering. That made me realize my mind is an interesting, if only abstract, ethereal “thing” that apparently occupies the space behind my eyes and between my ears. It then occurred to me that my mind controls everything about me.

Sometimes it makes me brilliant, sometimes it makes me stupid.
Sometimes it is focused and sometimes (maybe most of the time) it wanders.
Sometimes it has inspiration and sometimes nothing comes out.
Sometimes it thinks about real things and sometimes it fantasizes.
Sometimes it remembers every detail and sometimes it is a black hole.
Sometimes it is calm and sometimes it is anxious.
Sometimes it won’t go or stay where I want it to.
Sometimes it makes my eyes look at things I shouldn’t or don’t want to.
Sometimes it makes my mouth say things I shouldn’t or don’t want to.
Sometimes it registers everything it sees or hears and sometimes it ignores them. I have heard about that.
Sometimes when I’m anxious it causes a knot in my stomach.
Sometimes when things are going really well it causes a knot somewhere else.
Sometimes when I am frustrated it makes me say bad words.
Sometimes when I think I am doing the right thing it makes me feel good.
Sometimes when I am not doing the right thing it makes me feel bad.
Sometimes it takes me places by just thinking about them.
Sometimes I can’t tell the difference between what is real and what is imagined.
Sometimes that is a good thing.

Sometimes I think it is astounding that I can even contemplate my mind.

Sometimes I am amazed at what does come out of it.

Ken Kaiyala
3-20-09